I just worked for like eight million years* and now I am eating curry and also I am super dead on the inside thanks Toys R Us.


Tomorrow morning before I go work for another millennium**, I am going to look at Kitty Mansion Candidate #1 (http://orlando.craigslist.org/apa/1549305363.html). I have high hopes for this place! It is obviously not a final decision, just going to visit. Maybe this is where the magic happens. Maybe clown care.

I know I haven't said anything about Haiti yet. I am donating locally and in small increments and also donating acutal things as well as the small bit of money I can give up, because I am so poor and really need to be focusing on being able to afford a deposit, first month's rent, and groceries for about a month. I was going to open commissions but in light of the whole Haiti thing and not being able to contribute as much as I'd like to, I am just going to try to continue to scrape by with what I'm making now.

Anyways I love you guys. I LOVE YOU OK

YOU BETTER LOVE ME BACK

*eleven hours

**eight hours

OK YOU GUYS I AM SUPER TORN RIGHT NOW

MegaCon, which Lauren (taconaco) is going to be flying in for AND I AM ALSO SUPER EXCITED ABOUT BECAUSE COME ON, LAUREN AND NICHELLE NICHOLS AND A BUNCH OF AWESOME COMICS PEOPLE, is March 12-14th.

These are also the dates of Harvest of Hope.

This was not initially a big deal. I honestly didn't care about Harvest of Hope that much. I mean, what was I going to be missing? Getting dirty camping and and injured during the Man Man show? So what! Lauren! Nichelle Nichols! A whole weekend of unadulterated geekiness, altered mental states and fun.

So what changed?

THE LINE UP FOR HARVEST OF HOPE HAS BEEN OFFICIALLY ANNOUNCED.

THE MOUNTAIN GOATS ARE PLAYING.

THE GOD DAMNED MOUNTAIN GOATS ARE PLAYING.

He canceled in November, because he was sick. I don't know what that actually means but I am going with HE WAS SICK, OK. Anyways, instead of going to see Final Fantasy (which was the opening band for the evening), we went and cried and drowned our sorrows in Cracker Barrel biscuits and pork chops and pie. And now he is coming back. And I don't think I can bear to miss it.

But I also don't want to let Lauren and all the other MegaCon beautiful people down.

BUT JOHN DARNIELLE.

JOHN DARNIELLE.

HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO MAKE THIS DECISION.

ETA: I want it to be clear that I am like. Spice Girls-level obsessed with The Mountain Goats, but for a lot of reasons. It sounds cheesy as fuck but John Darnielle's music has helped me SO MUCH during the past few months. He has become my go-to whenever I am feeling anything, really. I respect him SO MUCH as a musician, and I also respect his music in an entirely separate way. Seeing him, for me, would be right up there with being able to go back and see George Harrison. EXCEPT THIS IS ACTUALLY POSSIBLE. AND IT IS HAPPENING. And asghk;agljaljfas. Thank you, that is all. GOOD DAY.

Well HELLO everyone!

Florida is still cold as fuck for some reason I can't comprehend. I am, inexplicably, still alive in the aftermath of The Germans (my dad's ladyfriend and her daughter, Rebecca). Even after Disney, and "Christmas", and SeaWorld (The Dangerzone... which Jen now has an annual pass for! FUCK YES, I LOVE MANTA RAYS AND WHALES AND SHARKS and clydesdale horses AND PENGUINS GDI IT I JUST LOVE THEM SO MUCH), and all the SHOPPING, I am alive. And SOMEHOW not in horrible financial ruin. Only mild financial ruin. Not enough financial ruin to put KITTY MANSION on hold. For those of you that don't know, Kitty Mansion is going to be my home in the very near future. Co-conspirator Jessica and I have finally found the place, and the rent just went down. We, of course, still have to make sure that it is just the place for us, so we will be visiting soon. I will be sure to bring a camera.

This entry has my adventure! tag on it. It is tagged as such because I am finally coming to terms with the adventure I have been on these past 6 months. It has not been fun. It has not been pretty. But it has happened! And what an adventure it was. It took me a lot of places I never wanted to go - being "homeless", moving in with my dad, losing my darling Oliver the cat. Unwashed hair and unemployment and unhappiness. But it has given way to a new bond, a new job, a new outlook. I am not doing so bad. Just because things don't go according to plan doesn't mean shit, it just means I am a poor planner and forgot that plan B doesn't just exist to make plan A look better. I have to accept that plan A was never all that realistic to begin with, and it is part of the past. Just like the House on Oak Avenue is part of the past. So on. So forth. Et cetera. So it goes.

Today at work I had to climb pretty much the highest ladder ever created in the history of Time. I took one look at that thing as one of my supervisors rolled it into the Electronics department and nearly peed my pants. But I climbed it! And put emblast cases up in the dusty as fuck valances THAT MAKE ME THINK I MAY BE DYING FROM DUST POISONING, SHUT UP IT EXISTS BECAUSE I SAY IT DOES because there is literally NOTHING ELSE TO DO AT TOYS R US NOW THAT THAT THE HOLIDAYS ARE OFFICIALLY OVER. There is seriously NOTHING. TO. DO. Nothing to do but think of Kitty Mansion and various members of society topless and clean all the dust off the computer keyboards.

YEP.

OKAY FLORIDA LOOK.

YOU KNOW STINGY ASS BITCHES BE LIVIN' IN THIS HOUSE AND YET. AND YET. YOU REFUSE TO WARM UP.


THIS IS BLATANT DISRESPECT.

Also I don't want to work tomorrow.

ALSO KITTY MANSION. LSAKJGLDKSFJASLKFDJ KITTY MANSION. I am too scattered to do a real update right now, but LAWD KNOWS I WILL TOMORROW.


Oh and HI NEW FRIENDS FROM THE SHERLOCK FRIENDING MEME I LOVE YOU

So I am totally obsessed with Tegaki lately. Tegaki and The Magnetic Fields (also The Mountain Goats but that is pretty much a constant). So here, have some stuff I did on Tegaki because I have no real life.

None of this is really my best work but I have been trying a lot of different things lately. Some of them work and some of them do not, but I figured I'd share them all.

( LET ME TAKE YOU DOWN, LET ME EASE YOU AROUND MONTGOMERY )

YEP. I do real art sometimes too. I'll get that scanned in eventually.

I could certainly use this right now. I've been feeling pretty lonely and it's always good to say nice things about others. I've filled out quite a few of these so far. Maybe you'll do the same. :)

the p o s i t i v i t y meme


Whether or not you choose to do it, I'd like to thank all my internet friends and RL friends for being awesome and encouraging, especially since the last two months have just been hell. Real post with some art either later or tomorrow!

YOU MAY HAVE NOTICED THAT I HAVE A NEW DEFAULT ICON.

"WHY NIKITA," YOU MAY SAY, "IS THAT BONES IN A SANTA HAT?"

THE ANSWER, IN SHORT, IS YES.

GOOD DAY!

Well, well, well.
I haven't posted in the last three weeks simply because I haven't had a lot of time. My life has been pretty hectic, but wonderful overall.

I guess the saga stars three weeks ago. Jessica and I had a mini road trip to Sarasota to visit Aaron and Amanda, at New College and Ringling respectively, and that was a ton of fun. I think the most fun we actually had was in the car. We listened to Girl Talk the whole way there and stopped at Dino World on the way back. It was overall a wonderful time.

I love and am very thankful for everyone, by the way, since I totally missed Thanksgiving due to being... well... incapacitated. Um. Most of you probably already know the story on that one. After a long day of throwing up and napping fitfully I ate pizza and mozzarella sticks for Thanksgiving dinner, but it was an okay day.

I have a job now! I work at Toys R Us - which has been pretty crazy now that it's the holiday season. I worked from 8 in the morning until 4 in the afternoon, and it was CRAZY. Absolutely insane. We were pretty much completely sold out of all of our deals by the time I got to work since we opened at midnight, so in essence my job was to keep people from ripping out each other's and our throats over Leapsters and Zhu Zhu pets. On a related note: WTF IS UP WITH THE ZHU ZHU PETS? People are flipping out like mad over them this year. I was instructed to hide one in my register and if someone asked for it, I could sell it to them. That seemed pretty crazy to me, but I did it, and someone did ask for it in a frantic gurgle (I'm not even sure it was English. All I heard was "ZHU ZHUUUUU!"), and... I don't know. Does anyone know what those are about?

I've done a ton of other stuff in the past few weeks but none of it is really that exciting - I went to see my mom in New Smyrna, discovered the Christmas spirit, saw The Men Who Stare at Goats, and today I'm hopefully gonna go run around with Amie, Rini and Jen, and also start my Christmas shopping. Happy happy funtiem yay. Also, I am finally picking up my illustration projects again!! I have hardly worked on ANYTHING in these past three weeks, so it's time to get that ball rolling again. And I will. Believe you me, I will.

So much news I have! But first, a meme:

YOU'RE THE __________ TO MY __________

Click the link and leave me a comment (anonymous if you want)! Go on, stroke my ego some.

Aaand all the news a little later, after my head is screwed on straight.

I was tagged by blowdry

FIRST: If you've been tagged, you must write your answers in your own LJ and replace any question that you dislike with a new, original question.
SECOND: Tag eight sexy people. Don't refuse to do that like a pansy.

No. I'm not tagging anyone. But here are my answers. They're moody and immature. Just so you know.
( heeere we go )

Here are the rules:

• Leave me a comment saying "Resistance is Futile."
• I'll respond by asking you five questions so I can satisfy my curiosity
• Update your journal with the answers to the questions
• Include this explanation in the post and offer to ask other people questions

centerspire asked me these questions:
( LEMME GIVES YA SOME ANSWERS )

Yep. Real update later. I have a lot to say.

ABSOLUTELY NOTHING GOOD HAS BEEN HAPPENING IN MY LIFE LATELY SO I HAVEN'T BEEN POSTING THAT MUCH, SORRY.


SKDLGJDSLFKHLGKDSJFLCNKLSDHSDLFKJALCNSKDGLAFDSJSDFLKJLSFKDJ.

THAT IS ALL, GOOD DAY

1. If you're on my friends list, I want to know 35 things about you. I don't care if we never talk, or if we already know everything about each other. Short and sweet is fine.
2. Comment here with your answers and repost the questionnaire on your own journal.

( dooo iiiiit. )

Today had all kinds of potential to be crappy, what with the fact that my mom blew me off YET AGAIN, but I can't bring myself to care that much. Why?

BOOKS!

Today I went to the bookstore to finally check out Ulysses, but the 'brary was closed. So I left my bike locked up there and went to Maya instead.

( welcome to maya books, my second home. )
She didn't have Ulysses, which was kind of disappointing, but Yvette went on a hunt for more James Joyce and came up with this little beauty:
( VERY AWESOMESAUCE )

And I was super-duper happy about that. Because some James Joyce is better than none at all! Plus, these two works are shorter, and I can become accustomed to his style before I tackle Ulysses. After she found that beauty for me, I also found a beautiful edition of Dylan Thomas' Collected Poems, and I picked up Middlesex, a novel by the guy who wrote The Virgin Suicides.

( WOOOOOOOO )

Such happy tiems!

Also I totally freaked myself out last night by doing a whole bunch of Slender Man research, and then watching the Slender Man ARG videos. I was sufficiently freaked, and then had a lot of trouble getting to sleep (at one point, it was probably 5 in the morning. Aaron coughed just a little bit in his sleep and I literally jumped and audibly squeaked. I'm so dumb), but then when I woke up this morning and kept looking at stuff, I decided I was going to do a little writing myself. I love getting inspired.. so look out for an as-of-yet unused tag on this LJ: storytime! I haven't written anything in a while, and this is an entirely new genre for me, so this should be pretty exciting.

For those who missed it or ignored it, I am still doing this meme:
THE "i've always wanted to tell you" MEME

You can holla at me from the warm, cozy safety that is being anonymous. Doooo it.
ANYWAYS. My birthday is on Monday. Stoked on it. :)

Also I've noticed that a lot of the time for my mood I write "pretty good, considering." I wonder what this says about my life.

I can't stop listening to this song right now.



It's SO PRETTY.

Also, I am doing this:

THE "i've always wanted to tell you" MEME

Click above to tell me anonymously what you really think, f-list. :)

I've been doodling a lot lately, so here. Have some.

Some of the stuff under here is a little NSFW, just so you knowwww.
( YAAAY! )

Day 1: a song
Day 2: a picture
Day 3: a book/ebook/fanfic
Day 4: a site
Day 5: a youtube clip
Day 6: a quote
Day 7: whatever tickles your fancy

Why do we have to double up today, you ask? BECAUSE YESTERDAY I PARTIED TOO HARD AND FORGOT TO DO A YOUTUBE CLIP.

So here you go.



As for the quote... uh. Hmm.
We're gonna go with another Mighty Boosh gem from the same scene, because I FEEL LIKE IT:
"This is the number 2, okay? He runs a coffee shop. This is the number 9. 9 is a customer, right? One day, 9 goes in and 2 goes 'I don't have a coffee house no more. I have a knife fighting academy. And number 9 goes, 'I want coffee!' And number 2 goes, 'No! I'm gonna slice you! And learn how to slice others! And 9 goes 'I can't! I gotta get out of here!' And 2 goes 'I'VE LOCKED THE DOOR!'"

"What does that mean?"

"It means I can't put you on the bill."

You can watch that scene here.

ENJOY, TASTY SKILLETS. ENJOY.

Day 1: a song
Day 2: a picture
Day 3: a book/ebook/fanfic
Day 4: a site
Day 5: a youtube clip
Day 6: a quote
Day 7: whatever tickles your fancy


The site I'm gonna recommend might not tickle everyone's fancy, but I'd like to get her out there - my friend Jessica's poetry blog: voirdire. She's a really incredible writer - check out her poems.

The most inspiring teacher I ever had was my eleveth grade AP Lang teacher, Mr. Hernandez. He taught me so much, including everything I know about writing. He was just all around the shit. We're still friends, even.

Thanks, Nanners!